Waves...

I can't offer neat or simple...
Can’t give a breezy kind of love…
Boxed up and wrapped away
To open in easy moments
Choosing when and where to let it out or make it stay.

This love of mine is water...
Once it flows it covers everything
Not even my own heart contains it most days
It drips from my mouth without a thought
Pours from my fingertips...
My eyes aren't designed to keep it at bay...


It spills...
Over your hands
Into your ears
Through your memories
Searching and soaking them in... understanding... you

It seeps…
Into your laugh
Through your skin
Leaving nothing untouched
unloved…

Around your neck in a stream…
And down your spine to where your strength lies
Fills the corners where the questions and doubts hide
This love knows your mind...
and with infinite hope it trusts your left side...
where ribs abide.

This love won't be quiet and move haltingly like some might…
It's bold and gushing...
It laughs loud and teases in the daylight
Broods with music and longing over your voice at night

This love knows where you came from 
and wants to be everywhere you're going...

If your body is there…
If your laugh is there…
If that drive behind the sleepless nights finds you in a place
with lights off and screen glowing or notebook waiting for your thoughts...

This love wants to soak that page
Those linens where you lay
That moon over your face
This love wants to drown you in that place

Scrawled notes...

There is a deep well of words
Tied to affection
And admiration

This whole planet with gravity
And marine ecoverses
Flora..
Sculptures.
And books of love...
Melodies
Sonnets
Scrawled paper notes in magic marker...

You want to give this to someone...
You want them to read and hear your sarcastic voice...

Yet read and hear your loving aura
Of motherly goodness and light...

It seems so urgent
Yet rushed
So important
And not...

Do they even want to hear it?
Past ego?
Despite apathy?
Including rage?
Maybe...

Or maybe this unrequited love sh*t
Is for real...

Who knows...
Who are they to care...
About your amazing affirmation???
Ohhhhhh....
Just everybody.
Just everything.

She's just a sieve...

Heart and scars

stitched with the gold thread

of stars...

No lullabies here.

Just the gleam... 

A burning constellation

Contrast to the black vast nothing

Chasms...

Spasms...

Light made sound in the healing

Then left it that way

Cauterized...

Transparent paper thin skin

Heart beat so loud on the sleeve

It's visible...

Fragile looks beautiful to the knife.

Feathers soft to the wind.

Strength is wax and wane

Weak is joy in pain...

In day's bright

there's still half sight

The spider's lace holds...

Under the moon's ruin

every crack is wide 

and the lyrics fall through it.

Turns out she's just a sieve.